I'm just really sad today.
Being honest...

Life Update

So I think facebook killed my blog, but for those who aren't facebookers, I will write an update!
Life is good (more or less). God is good - and that remains, when all else fails, He remains strong. Never-changing. Hallelujah.
I moved into a new place at the beginning of January and live with two wonderful young ladies who are a blessing to my life. We're in a co-op housing unit in the Downtown Eastside, and it's really working out well for us. Community is great.
I got a new job working in a female shelter, Belkin House, for the Salvation Army. I haven't been working for too long, but I love it. The women bring joy into my life, and I am learning so much about resources and other aids. It also gives me lots of time to pray, which is a huge gift.
God is good and is speaking. He's been teaching me to truly bless others and pray good things for their lives, regardless of what they think of me. It's about His Kingdom, not mine. Ha! How silly. It's so easy to bless and love those who love you back. Don't get me wrong, it's still wonderful and rich, but it's just a lot harder to bless those who don't reciprocate the love. You feel me?
The LORD is restoring my zeal for His word, which has been a long time coming, so Praise God for that. I also feel like God has been showing me a lot of my selfishness, and pride, BUT He has also been encouraging me with hope. Rather than getting down and feeling horrible, I see where God is taking me FROM and bringing me TO. I'm trying to stay humble, laying at His feet. "My Deliverer is coming, my Deliverer is standing by". So Glory to Him. His love endureth forever. Amen.

Awake, and sing

The LORD is gracious and compassionate.
Hallelujah.
It is good to be alive and well - happy, saved and free. Amen.
Just got back from two weeks in New Jersey, New York City and Harlem.
I was in a car accident today, but other than that I am healthy and extremely happy to see Rochelle and John as they are fresh from Zimbabwe here with us for the holidays.
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I've noticed that Paul often starts his letters with a greeting and blessing of peace and grace to people. I stopped and thought about that. Many people in many walks of life are going through a spectrum of circumstances, but a true, deep blessing of peace and grace would be rich for anyone.
What if we greeted each other with grace and peace? What if we prayed that, blessed that, LIVED that out with each person we came in contact with.
We are so grace deprived!
In our community we always say "grace" when we leave each other, but often times it can lose its meaning.
We can become subject to trying to live without the need for grace. Ha! As if...
The LORD is gracious and compassionate.
We are ALL in need of the LORD. Bless me, Father, for trying to prove to you, to myself, to the world that if I try really hard, I won't need your grace.
I need it. I need your mercy, your love that is endless, your compassion, your strength.
I need you. The more I know you, the more I know that I need you. And I feel bad asking for more, yet I know, as you look at your children, it is with great joy that you pour it over us.
Cure me, cure us, rid us from this "Messiah Complex" that can bring death, haughtiness and decay.
Fill us with love, mercy, grace, and your peace. Let that emanate from us. Let it pour out, reach out to the lost, the broken, the lonely.
I run into your arms and lean fully. I find my solace there.

My laptop and desktop computer died - thus the desert in the blogs...

I've been going through a hard time lately. Thought things would get better, but still working on them. Hey, that's life.

Your prayers would be deeply appreciated.

Much grace,
Kirsten

Blog for Joel

Joel (big bro) used to work at Starbucks and in his blogs would always write out the drinks that he had each day. I really loved reading them, because it was really funny, as well as it's a detail of someones life that is hardly ever written about. So Joel, this is for you.
These are the most common drinks that I PERSONALLY would order

1)Grande, Sugar-free vanilla, non-fat, easy-water, extra foamy, earl grey tea misto
2) Triple tall half full americano with two pumps white mocha and an inch of non-fat foam, topped off with whole milk (that's my basic one)
3) Iced, triple grande, 4 pump sugar-free vanilla, non-fat, easy ice, caramel machiatto.
4) Grande soy no water tazo chai latte
5) Double tall non fat, not whip, exta foamy mocha
6) Quad tall, with room americano (that's the easiest one)

Do you still jive on Starbuck-Speak?

Morning has broken

Things are good for me. For the first time in a while I can say that.
Worship at Kneedrill was so rich and sweet.
Holy Spirit was moving, loving, teaching, guiding, sharing, breaking - it was all very beautiful.
Like the dawn breaking through the night, the LORD has revealed Himself, yet again, and restored hope. As in Isaiah, He was given me garments of praise for a spirit of heaviness. So I rejoice. I am encouraged. The LORD has put a new song in my mouth - a song of praise and thanksgiving. Glory to God.

Dan White: age 25

Dan is one of my closest most dearest friends. He never fails to inspire me and spur me on to be a greater person. Dan is steadfast in his devotion and growing deep roots as his branches stretch out far.
His love is huge.
He is one of the few that I can honestly say "his life is a prayer".
Dan finds meaning is almost EVERYTHING. It's quite funny.
I was on the phone with him and he mentioned in passing that on his screen saver he has a picture of clay jars to remind him that he is just an earthly vessel. I don't know why but it made me laugh...for a very long time. Bless his soul.
DAN - all the best. May His grace abound in your life.
Much love (felios).
Kir xox